Month: December 2016

Week 13: Turning Around on a Dime

I have been all over the place in the last several weeks.  Whew!

I have been up and I have been down, I have seen it working in my life, then I feel like it is a waste of time.  Then this morning happened…

So I am taking the biggest leap I have ever taken before.  I have hired an International Award winning  Coaching Team (yes, it takes a team)  that is going to push me, pull me, mold me into that which I have created myself to be, “The Leading International Expert in Women’s Performance, Best-Selling Author, Fit and Fabulous”.

Yesterday in speaking with someone about my excitement and apprehension of this giant leap, she shared with me and said some things (although not intentionally) got me feeling bad and totally second guessing myself.  Now mind you, having this International Coach show up and then raising the capital to pay for it was completely brought into my consciousness from my subconscious being hard at work on realizing my burning desires that I have created, and I was clear about that.  Nonetheless, I began to think about what a stupid idea it was, I should not do it, who am I to do this, etc, etc, etc.

I woke up this morning, with those same thoughts only 10 times worse now that I have simmered in them.  But I did my megeorge-bernard-shawditation as I always do, and it got louder, and then crawled into my same chair as I do every morning after my meditation with my tea in hand, ready to go through the motions of my readings. So I read the chapter of “The Greatest Salesmen in the World” by Og Mandino, and then I read the one sentence sum up of my desires for next year,  As I began to read it faking it til I made it, a switch got turned on.  I no longer was faking it, it is me, it is my truth, I am taking the right actions, I can accomplish anything I want.

The doubts, the fears, the apprehension, it was gone.  The clarity was back, I had turned around on a dime.

I finished my reading and got about my day.  It was magical.  My confidence had shifted, I had clarity and pureness of thought.  I have promised to let go of my ego and I trust in the powers that be and it is showing up as I created.  My subconscious mind is leading the way, it is demolishing my ego.  It is showing me that I am not a “feverish, selfish little clod of ailments and grievances” as George Bernard Shaw writes. But I am a magnificent, capable woman who can accomplish anything.

So the story continues.  I may still have the mental fights as my ego and my identity fight for that which is safe.  But I shall overcome, as the old hymm goes.

Happy Holidays to all!  May you find your true joy in life!

Week 12: Just Keeping It Real

Does it have to be a struggle?

I read it with feeling, I walk and listen, I write, I read, I visualize, I concentrate, I relax, I go on the mental diet, and then I struggle.  What is that about?  How can I feel so disjointed? What is missing? Is this that hard for me?  Is it all just a test?

So I know Haanel says that it does not work to change things about, but doesn’t life start to move and change as you go along?  My journey over the last twelve weeks strugglehas been moving fast.  I have made huge leaps of faith.  I can see my vision in my head so clearly.  I have a knowing that it is already mine and on its way to me.  But this in between time when things seem to not make sense other than being a lot of work and a huge distraction in getting the work done that there is to do.

This week I am tired.  Tired of the same frustrating things happening.  Tired of not doing what I need to do and continuing with the bad habits that have crept in to mask the disappointment that I have in myself.  It is a little bit
like what I imagine a alcoholic goes through when they can see they keep doing what they to stop, but not being able to seemingly do anything about it and soon they just don’t remember that they are doing something they are not supposed to be doing.  I don’t know really what it is to be an alcoholic gratefully, but the addictions and the habits come in many different forms.

So even as I write this I can feel the disatisfaction in that I am even writing this, or that I even feel this way.  I know, I know, think God or my happy place.  Okay, then what?

So I bring in the Law of Forgiveness, I forgive myself, then the Law of Duality, replace that frustration with joy, the the Law of Practice, do it over, and over and over.  As Og says in the 3rd Scroll, try and try and try again, as you will never know until you turn the corner, so just keep going.  So I am going to keep going.  I am going to keep working it out.  My subconscious and my ego at battle, but my subconscious is going to be victorious.

I suppose if this was easy, we would all be rich, skinny and happy, as someone, somewhere said.

So going to keep it real, I battle, I struggle, but this time, unlike other times, I just keep going.

 

 

Week 11: Don’t Second Guess What is Showing Up

Well it have a really big future that I have created.  My Future and Vision for the end of 2017 is BIG.  I will have to have a complete paradigm shift.  bhagIt is ten times what I accomplished this year.  I will need a catalyst.  But when things start to show up I second guess it.

My business has doubled this past year, it has been great, but when I look at what is possible (and that is just what I can actually see) there is a potential that most people would say, scale that back, that is not really possible.  But who are they to say right?

Now I have been doing the work, day in and day out, both the inner and the outer work.  But recently an opportunity came to me to work with a group of Global Coaches.  Now of course I was “Yes, please”, but the very next thought was “I can’t afford that.”  Now going back to what Og says to get rid of can’t, impossible, etc…I just started in as if I would find a way.

I began taking the actions one would take.  The coaches gave me things to do, things began to look like possibly I could make it work, but alas I said no.  Then as I was driving home and idea popped in my head that would be the answer to all my concerns.  So back in action I got.

I did not realize at first that maybe my subconscious had actually had this show up as a way in which to realize the big future I had created. Everything seems to be pointing towards this is the right thing, or the thing that is being given  for me to realize that big future that would take a paradigm shift for me to accomplish.

So I have jumped in, I still am working out the details, but I can feel it happening.  It is as sure as my name is Georgiana.  I have a sense of calm, of peace, that all is exactly as it should be.

This leads me to the second thing I want to say about this.

I have spent a lifetime trying to not feel.  It just seemed better that way. If I did not feel things than the hurt or disappointment would somehow be less.  I have gotten quite good at it.

The problem with not feeling is that I also suppress the “good” feelings.  The feelings of excitement, love, gratitude etc…the feelings that allows my subconscious to really get my future that I want is one that feels good.

So excited I get.  Loving and grateful everyday.  Passionate I demonstrate.  I am alive!

Anything is possible when I am living, as I say, out loud, on purpose and wildly expressed.

Week 10: Consistency is Key!

Well what a rollercoaster ride it has been.  Way up one week, then way down the next.  But the key I have discovered is consistency!

I have found myself wanting to quit the last week.  My subconscious mind was fighting tooth and nail for something.  One minute it was “this doesn’t work for me”, the next it was “a few moments each day are a small price to pay”. So I just kept on it, I must admit someday were more enthusiastic than others, but I worked my way through it.

I found myself wondering it you ever get to the other side and just never have bad days again.  I mean wouldn’t that be wonderful.  An entire day, week, month, year without the ego trying to take over and tell you just how “hard” this is and “what are you doing all this for anyway?”

It is over this last week that my ego is fighting for “it’s” life.  After all most of my life it has been my protector, my survival mechanism.  The one thing that was going to keep me safe from humiliation, failure and the such, or so it thought.  And that bugger is just not going to go down without a fight.

The good thing is, I got game and I am not going down!

So I continue to wake up and sit, and read, and review my board.  I think, I visualize, I plan, I imagine and then I go about my day. Then after lunch, I read, I visualize, I plan, I imagine and go about my day, and finally laying in bed before closing my eyes, I sit, I read, I visualize, I imagine.

The one thing I do know is that some days I can see it and some days I can’t, but I wake up and greet the day with love and that is pretty great start.

I know many people may struggle.  After all, we or at least I, was not born into a culture where love fought the battles.  I was born into a culture/world of complaints, and don’t fail at all costs, be careful you don’t want to get hurt way of doing life.

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I was told when you fall off just get back on the horse.  The problem was that doing the same thing over and over expecting different results, is insanity, and that is where I spent most of my life.  I knew it, I just could not seem to change it.

 

So now I practice.  I bring consistency to break through the complacency my brain has set up for me.  I work my brain, I feed my subconscious with a consistent dose of healthy fuel to alter that which has been imprinted over the many years living in a society of complacency.

So I am grateful to be able to see a future where the law of attraction is prevalent in my life.  Where I am in the flow.  I am creating and acting, laughing and loving in a way that I feel good, no, actually where I feel amazing.

So consistency is key.  I will take the right actions, and do the right thinking, until finally I have the master key working for me.